Monday, August 16, 2010

Lift My Eyes

This morning I had a conversation with God. I was very upset and feeling so sad from the weekend. I've been feeling so alone and so helpless. I also feel like my husband should care about his family and he doesn't seem to care. He actually seems to avoid me. He doesn't go out of his way at all to help when I call him with questions or problems and he hasn't spent too much time with the kids lately and this has made me quite upset. I really felt quite disappointed in my husband. Well, my ex husband. So I really just kinda asked God to help me out of this sadness. It wasn't a big curtain lifting or a voice from heaven speaking to me. But I did hear that still small voice telling me that I really should not depend on man but I should depend on God. I felt that God was telling me that this is a lesson I really need to learn even when my husband and I are reconciled. God brought this to my mind. My source of strength, my source of help, is Christ alone. No man will ever fill the position of Christ in my life. And I think the sooner I learn that lesson the sooner God will move on to another lesson and I'll be closer to receiving His promises for me!

Psalm 121

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

God, I'm so sorry that I didn't trust you to be my helper. To be my husband. To be my comforter and my provider. Please help me to set my sights on you and you alone. I pray for strength and wisdom to rise above the sadness that is so heavy right now. Thank you for not letting my feet slip, for watching over me day and night without fail, and for keeping me from harm. I love you Oh Lord. You are my strength. Help me to keep my eyes focused on you.

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