Divorce can really turn our world upside down.
It's been almost two years. Two long painful, heartbreaking, years of seeking God, praying, begging, weeping, crying, wrestling with God.
Proverbs 4:23 says above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
I did not guard my heart.
He did not guard his heart.
We let our hearts be taken captive.
Anger, bitterness, selfishness, pride and resentment began to take root in our hearts until the love that we once felt had been overtaken by the weeds.
Don't let your guard down.
Fall on your face before the Lord.
Cry out to the Lord.
Pray Psalm 51 over and over again until you get it right.
Until you find peace.
Until the love returns.
Until you guard your heart.
Have mercy on me Lord.
In your unfailing love, have mercy on me.
Take away my sin because of your great compassion for me.
I have sinned against you.
Cleanse me and I will be clean. Wash me and I will be whiter than snow.
Let me hear from you joy and gladness.
Create in me a clean heart.
Renew a right spirit in me.
Please God do not turn your back on me.
Do not take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of my salvation.
Grant me a willing spirit to continue.
My lips will then sing your praise.
This is the starting point.
The beginning of your new life.
And it could be the beginning of the resurrection of your marriage.
You have to want it.
You have to passionately want it.
You have to FOCUS on God and not yourself.
You have to set your mind and take your stand.
Forgive your spouse. He is not the enemy. Satan is the enemy. Your spouse is just being used by Satan. Forgive him for everything. Let it go. Remember it no more. It will do neither of you any good to hold on.
Obey God. Let His love fill your heart to overflowing. Walk in His path. The straight and the narrow.
He hates divorce. Malachi says so. Don't let that become an option. Ever.
Commit yourself to your marriage vows. Reread them. They are strong words. Not to be taken lightly. Commit yourself to your spouse. To loving them unconditionally as Christ loved us.
Commit yourself to God. To follow Him at all costs. Let Him turn your world upside down.
Understand the enemy. Satan comes to steal, kill and destroy. That is what he is doing in your marriage. You are blinded by the enemy. Understand that this is a spiritual battle. Fight it on your knees. Do not ask others their opinion but seek God only.
Surrender your will to God's will. Surrender your heart to God's love. Surrender your circumstances to God. Trust in Him. Trust in His character. He never changes. No matter what we do. He never changes. He will be our strength. He will be our guide.
Above all else, guard your heart. For it is the wellspring of life.